I fall at the altar

My feet are bloody
I have been walking for years
I rip out my sternum
I pull open my ribcage

My heart beats
A little unsteady
It flutters

How much more open
Do you need me to be?

“If you want it badly enough
It’ll come to you”

I want it
I want it
I want it

“If you do the work
It will come to you”

I have walked for years

My feet are bloody
My heart flutters
What more
Do you want from me?